booooored out of my miiiiind!!!!!

I can't find anything to do. I don't feel like watching tv... I don't feel like doing dishes... I don't feel like going to bed.
But, I do only have 45 minutes until my husband gets home!
Then he'll just go to bed and I'll be bored again. It's a vicious cycle!
Today the baby and I went outside. I sent her out in just a diaper and a t-shirt so she could get dirty and have fun without me having a panic attack because I'd have loads of dirty clothes to wash... ok, maybe no loads, but you get my point.
Ugh, I'm in a bad mood all of a sudden. G'night.

It's raining, it's pouring... soon I should be snoring.

It's raining... again. Well, storming more like it. I used to hate storms... I mean absolutely hate them. For whatever reason ever since I had Reagan they don't bother me all that much. I even sometimes find them comforting. I think it's because now with my little girl I'm content and I have to be strong for her. She senses my fear and I don't want to put her through that.

I honestly have no idea where today went. I didn't clean house all that much... I didn't go outside... I didn't nap... I went to the store for like 45 minutes... that's it. Where did my day go?!?!

I got up this morning feeling decent... still have a runny nose and a bit of congestion. My headache is starting to come back though. Ah well, that's why I have migraine meds, right? Right.

Make the sickies go away!

I just can't seem to get rid of this ickiness! I've only been getting worse as the days go by. I've had a terrible headache all day and am now getting flu symptoms. Two hours of sleep, migraine meds and three tums later I'm feeling a tid bit better, but I'm still terribly congested. Maybe I can sleep it all off tonight since I finally have all the senior pics edited!

I was so incredibly stressed over them.

Still no news on my lens being shipped yet. I'm having hubby email them to ask what in the world is bringing on the delay. I want it now! -impatient much?-

I'm really excited! Here's why...

My sister is coming home from Alaska next month. Exactly a month from now I'll be visitng her and my two beautiful nieces! I haven't seen them since I was a few months pregnant. That's almost 2 years ago. *tear* They'll be meeting the baby for the first time and she's over a year old and walking. It's been waaaay too long!

stuffy and cold... cold and stuffy

I'm sick. Not as bad as a couple of days ago when I was running fever, but I'm stuffy and just feel ick.

My husband and I got baptized together today. I feel so great and happy.

Nothing too exciting has happened other than I get my 85mm lens hopefully sometime this week. Depends on when the company we bought it from does their shipping. I think it'll be shipped tomorrow and get here by Thursday or Friday. Woot!

I really should go to bed now. I think the lack of sleep and bring on of stress has made me sick. Oh well, I have to edit more senior photos.

oh my gosh. Name my Goo Goo Dolls is on. I love that song.

G'night.

I did it!

I had the senior session yesterday and it went quite well! Seriously after the first shot, I relaxed and it was a total go with the flow kind of day.

On the way home (a two hour drive) the baby was fussy and trying to go potty. I then started smelling something, but it wasn't poop, so I pulled over. She had puked everywhere. I brought 3 outfits for her, but she had already dirtied two and was wearing the third one. I took her out, put her in the back of the durango and tried to change and wipe her up as much as I could. I had a clean and dry sweatshirt for her, but no pants that were wearable. It was cold and windy and she was pantless. So I hurried and cleaned her up and put her back in her seat with her blanky and she slept the rest of the way home.

By the time we got home I was so ready to be out of the car! My tailbone was killing me because I had been sitting for so long. I was just plain exhausted but I still edited 7 of the pictures before I went to bed. I had to wait on hubby to get home because I can't go to sleep without him. Unless I have to of course.

I got up the morning, worked out and then went away to editing and didn't finish until around 6 this evening. My sister all the pictures and she loves them, so I'm very relieved.

I'm cold and sleepy so bed sounds like a nice place right now. G'night!

*gasp* I missed a couple of days.

Nothing too exciting I don't think...

There's a spot on the back of my head that is REALLY tender. I mean, I just barely touch it and it hurts.

Anyway. lol Less than 48 hours until my photoshoot. I'm getting more and more anxious. (okay, really I'm nervous.) But I'm excited.

We went to church today where my husband decided he is also going to be getting baptized. We're both doing it next Sunday. My dad and stepmom are going to travel this way to watch. I love my family.

*Sigh* Things are going really well, so I can't complain.

I have about 2 hours to talk about what I want.

But I won't... because my life isn't interesting enough to write about for 2 hours. I'm lucky if I take 2 minutes.

I'm supposed to be watching a movie right now, but within the first... oooh... 3 minutes they show a guy that gets his arm cut off and there's blood everywhere.. yeah, I don't deal with that kind of stuff. That's why my movies that I pick out are funny and light-hearted. My husbands are action, blood, gore, people getting shot kind of movies.

For example... we rented 5 movies on Saturday. My husband picked out two, I picked out 3.

His movies are "Hitman" and "Chaos"

Mine are "Bee Movie" , "Alvin and the Chipmunks" and "Dan in real life"

Get my drift?

I have my first photoshoot coming up on Tuesday. I'm excited and extremely nervous all at the same time! It's for my step-nephew. I think doing a girls senior portraits would be so much easier. Ah well, I'll manage. I just hope the weather is decent and not all gloomy. Like right now because it's storming like mad.

Hmph... I'm just in an odd mood right now... Kind of a blank mood. Maybe I'm tired, but I think I may have forgotten what tired feels like. I know the feeling of exhausted, but the tired point... like where I could just lay down and go to sleep...? No. I so wish I didn't have a sleeping disorder. If I don't take medicine to help me sleep, I lay down and a million thoughts run through my head... i start thinking about stuff that needs to be done... things I forgot... things I should've done... things I shouldn't have done... what I'd look like with darker hair... what my husband and I last fought about... what time i need to take a shower the next day and within 30 minutes I need to dry my hair in order for it to part right... yes, it's that bad. No, I'm not crazy... just curious. ;)

Oh, Oh! I'm so happy with the new diet... lifestyle...(I haven't figured out waht to call it, but I'm sure I'll think about it before I go to sleep.) Within 2 weeks I have lost atleast an inch and a half off my waist... half an inch from my arms and I can tell I'm building muscle. I love it. The only thing I'm having trouble with is making my husband and I six meals a day. With that, I'm basically a chef and a dishwasher ninety percent of the time. And I hate dishes. It looks like we'll be jogging in the rain tomorrow morning. Boo.

Well, I'm going to try to update my pictures on myspace. Yay.

My to-do list. 4-7-08

The house has been neglected the past few days because I wasn't feeling so hot and we went out of town a few times this weekend. I really need to clean house... So I'm making a list.
Kitchen
Put away clean dishes
wash dirty dishes
clean off counters
wipe down counters
organize food closet
wipe down stove
clean out fridge
organize cabinets and drawers
sweep
mop
dining/computer area
clear table
wipe down table
clean computer desk
sweep
mop
living room
pick up toys
pick up clothes that a certain baby has thrown about
fold clothes
vacuum
bathroom
clean counter
clean toilet
clean tub
pick up clothes
baby's room
pick up toys
vacuum
our room
pick up clothes
wash bedding
organize closet
other
do laundry
sweep and mop hallway
disinfect trashcans
clean glass of grandfather clock
have husband take vanity top and box of clothes to storage

whew, I think that's it for now. We'll see if I can actually accomplish it all.

Tired... but must... blog...

I didn't feel like doing anything yesterday... so I didn't. I didn't even take Reagans or my 365.

We went out of town yesterday to get some of my husbands gear and when we got back in town we rented some movies and came home. We watched Bee Movie and went straight to bed.

We got up this morning and got ready for church. We had a good time and I made a decision today. I'm going to be getting baptized some time soon. Everyone at our church is so so nice.

I hadn't been to church in years... The past couple of months I've had some trouble with many things... silly things if you will... I just wasn't right... Something was wrong or missing rather. I've always had a relationship with God... I've always prayed and talked with him, but no doubt I could be closer and stronger in my faith. My husband knew I was having these issues and I asked if we could start going to church. I've prayed long and hard... asking for strength... just something to help me get through this "thing" I was going through. The more I talked and thought about it... the harder I prayed the stronger I felt... I asked my husband to attend church with me... This is what I need in my life. Of course he agreed. We have attended 3 Sundays in a row now and just the positive I feel... I know this is what I was missing. Our pastor ended the sermon today by telling us what Jesus has done for us... The wonderful place we'll be going if we give our hearts to him. I decided right then and there I wanted to be baptized. During the middle of our last song I went up to him and told him. Right there he prayed with me and announced my decision. Everyone was so welcoming and told me how proud they were of me for choosing to do so.

After church my husband and I washed our vehicle and then we headed out of town to just goof around and take pictures... whatnot stuff. We had a lot of fun, but I'm now tired and would really like a glass of milk. :) Since today's our free day and all.

Shurp.

Have you ever wondered why they don't make grape flavored yogurt? They have all kinds of flavors... even apple... but not grape. Why would you leave grape flavor out? I still can't decide if I'd rather it have the grape candy kind of flavor or actual grape flavor... ho hum.
I went grocery shopping today and got angry while in the grocery store. They were out of things like... black olives... pitas... tri-colored rotini... I mean really, stupid stuff that I figured they'd have. So I ended up having to drive to another grocery store that was like 30 minutes away. But I did get out of the house for a bit so it wasn't all bad.
My husband promised me that we'd go out and do something tomorrow... and that he'll spend all day and night with me tomorrow... that means no work and no ridealongs. yay! I still haven't decided what we should go do. It's supposed to be nice so maybe we'll go on a nature trail or something. We haven't done that in a while.
I'm really dreading going jogging in the morning. I did some squats today (I know, that sounds gross in it's own little way.) and my legs are KILLING me. I can barely lift them high enough to cross them, little lone go jogging right now. lol I might have to slack a little in the morning and sssslllloooowwww jog. Ah well, I'm proud of myself for sticking with this. I feel so much better in general. I'm also sleeping better, which is way good for me.
Welp, I have about 45 minutes before hubby gets home so I think I'm gonna get some R&R on the couch for a bit.

ouch.

I have a TERRIBLE headache... I can barely look at the computer screen. I just took my migraine meds and hope they kick in soon.
Today is my husband's 22nd birthday. Happy birthday baby! Even though you tried to be a big butthead for a short moment earlier.
I actually went outside today to do my 365. It felt nice. Although my feet were absolutely soaked when I came back in.
It got in the high 60's today and just when I thought the baby and I should go take a walk, it started storming... thunder, lightning... the whole works.
Speaking of the baby, she is feeling much better today. She got the occasional runny nose and that nasal sound to her voice, but it was around the time I could give her more meds... so I'd give them to her and she's like new. Almost.
Tomorrow is lower body workout which I love. It's my favorite day. I really hope I start seeing results, but I'm always the last to notice since it's my body. I do think I see some changes in my husband though! Which is good because he can get discouraged by these things pretty quickly. I ask if he sees anything different with me and he just says no because I always look hot... Men...

I don't want a poopie bathtub!

Early this morning was a usual... got up, jogged, breakfast... yadda yadda. The baby get up... she is starting to get a cold, so of course she's cranky and doesn't feel well. Poor baby. :( Normally when she's sick she's kinda lazy and tired all day, but no... not today... She's just really cranky and is STILL getting into everything, but when she gets a "no no" from mommy she go hysterical on me... Like I totally ruined her day by telling her for the 400th time not to push buttons on the computer or TV... not to stick her hands in mommy's food and then throw the food on the floor... Not to stick her finger in mommy's nose (She likes to press my nose while I say "honk honk", but sometimes misses and it goes in my nostril which she thinks is a whole other game.)
The husand went to ride-along tonight, which I really didn't want him to because the baby wasn't feeling well... and sometimes... a mama just needs a break. He went to ride-along anyway. So, pretty much the moment he walks out the door, the baby is screaming... so I give her some juice and she drinks a little but doens't want it and throws it on the floor. I try to feed her... She take a bite, take the food out of her mouth, throws it on the floor. I take her to her room so she can play... She's in there for 2 minutes and cries to me. She wants me to pick her up... I pick her up... She cries because she wants down, so I put her down and then she cries because I put her down... I then decided she would be having an early bedtime. While dinner is cooking I put her in the bathtub. She loves taking baths... She's playing and she squats down... She let a rather large poot out and laughed... She then pushed harder and she pooped in the bathtub... I then have to take her out. I didn't notice when I was taking her out that she still had a cup full of water in her hands... She pours it all over me... I set her in the floor and make a few trips from bathtub to toilet scooping poop out... on my last trip I turn around and she has her hands in the toilet playing with the toilet paper/poop. It was horrible.
I get her cleaned up and dressed... get some food in her belly and off to bed she went. I'm tired and not in the best of moods.

I really want some oreos and pumpkin pie, but my diet doesn't allow that. Figures.